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November 2014 - in a nutshell

We are almost reaching towards the end of 2014.  How's yours?  I am not even near to be rich  and still ugly as always but yeah, mine had been pretty amazing! 
November had been another very busy month. Series of work event. Lots of travelling. 
Flew to Penang for Penang Bridge Marathon.  Flew to Kuching for friend's bachelorette party. 
In between there were meetings and work events.  Body cant take it anymore. Fell terribly sick. One of the most terrible fever I got this year. Body turn jelly. Heh! But now I have recovered and I feel win! 
Watch a hilarious musical theater. Catch up with many different old friends (it made me realized I have many amazing friends + all the different stories how i met them at different chapters of my life)  Finally, company's annual dinner. 
That pretty much sum up my November. 
December. Gonna be a season to be jolly! 
xoxo, 
Malden 

Running with a dream in my heart.

I would never thought I would run 10km. I would never expect I would even want to do that. Early this year I have decided to challenge myself to run further. Its a challenge for my mental strength and a test for my physical fitness that had long been neglected.

I would say I still got. I doubt myself at the beginning of the run. I was afraid of my old leg injury will haunt me but thank God, no leg cramps. It was a nice day for running. So we ran. My friends and I got separated in the crowds. We all cross the finishing line successfully. Satisfied. 
Looking back. I am focus on how far I have come. Life is incredible. Manage to meet up some old friends. Catching up was great. It was a weekend well spent and I am happy. I miss the feeling of winning. Obtaining another medal. Its an achievement and a great life story. 
While I was running, I can relate it with life.
Life is a marathon.
Keep going on when it hurts.
Keep going on when it sucks.
Look pass through it.
Run forward. Progress to…

Heavy chested

Do you know that feeling? That heavy in the chest feeling when you leaves home? 
Aku tak ingat aku baca kat mana. Aku baca banyak benda. Mungkin juga orang pernah cakap kat aku. Dorang cakap, pena kan perasaan jadi perkataan. Maka kamu aku jadi kurang marah. Kurang sedih. Kurang depressi. Sebab tu aku muncul balik kat sini. Menulis perasaan. 
Dorang ada cakap juga. Exercise regularly. Benda exercise ni suatu ketika dahulu, sangat aku praktikkan. Makin lama, makin jarang. Sebab utama, aku hilang motivasi. Dorang cakap, kalau stress, workout. Boleh kurang kan stress. Pada masa yang sama, badan penat. Boleh tido dan rehat dengan lebih baik. Luka fizikal boleh nampak. Luka emosi? Sendiri tahu. 
Paling mujarab. Hand it all to the Lord.  
Sedih wei. Ini bukan sedih jenis ko boleh nangis sepanjang masa. Air mata pun takda.  Ini sedih yang makan dalam. Satu badan rasa. Lemah.  Hati sakit. Perut kosong. Tapi tak lapar. Makan tak lalu. Penat. Badan lemah. 
Penat. Mengantok. Tapi tak dapat tido.…

Are you one of them?

Saints.. 
Are you one of them? 
Mungkin ada dikalangan kita. Mereka pun tidak tahu. They are one of them. 
Those who stays faithful to one another. 
Those who did good, untold, unseen. 
Those who found God. Reminded by God. 
Those we loved. May never have thought themselves as holy and religious. But their goodness is clear to us, and to everyone else. 
Blessed All Saints Day 

Death..
Are you afraid of death? 
All faithfully departed that had long gone to be with the Lord. In loving memory. 
I miss you. I miss your voice. I miss talking to you. In prayer we remember. 
Are you afraid of death? 
The more you know the Lord. You fear death less. 
Blessed All Souls Day 

Love, Malden. 



To do list.

Ok. I need to ensure I keep my "To do list" permanent somewhere. I begin to write about my to do list since 2009 back in University. It had been pretty awesome and target to cross more out of the list! .  1. Archery 2. Bungee Jumping  3. Sky diving  4. Horseback riding  5. Go carting  6. Ride motorbike 7. Ride ATV  8. Learn to juggle  9. Scuba Dive  10. Ride a Roller Coaster  11. Water Rafting  12. Kayaking  13. Jet Ski  14. Solve a Rubik's Cube  15. Finish a jigsaw puzzle  16. Go sailing  17. Sea cruise  18. Learn a foreign language 19. Hot air balloon ride  20. Attend a concert  21. Paint Ball  22. Learn a martial art  23. Roller skate  24. Skate board  25. Ice skate  26. Donate blood  27. Learn how to swim  28. Wall climbing  29. Go camping outdoor  30. Fly a kite 31. Colour run  32. Learn how to bartend & mix drinks 33. Learn how to be a coffee barista 34. Get a PhD 35. Enter a casino...and gamble perhaps?  36. Elephant ride 37. Watch dolphins  38. Play golf  39.…

Hati dan batu

Dia punya hati. Hati kuat. Hati keras. 
Kita tahu. Sekeras keras batu dalam sungai, Lama lama terhakis jua dek aliran air.  
Sekeras keras batu. Terhakis jua dek angin dan pasir. 
Batu itu. Makin hari. Makin nipis. 
Kau angin itu. Kau air itu. Kau pasir itu. 
Batu itu. Makin hari. Makin nipis. 
Lama lama, pecah. 
Batu itu. 
Batu itu, adalah aku. 

Your loving kindness

Yesterday was a mourning day for the nation. Remembering those who had lost their loved ones in the MH17 tragedy. It was devastating and it breaks every single heart. My condolences to all affected. 
Not very long time ago, I had heard several news about colleagues and friend who had lost their loved ones. Due to illnesses. Due to unexpected tragedy. I also heard news about people was admitted to the hospital. As I grew up, this had become pretty common. I bet my recent post was also about something similar. The world, or at least my surrounding had keep on reminding me that this world is temporary. Our time may be up any time soon. 
I do always reminded myself, I have tried hard to nourish myself spiritually. It is something I had tried to maintain and improve for years. I am a poor sinner and many times I got drifted away from God's love, it is something I always wanted to improve on. 
With all this happening to this world, I came across a number of celebrities I followed in Ins…

Life recipe

Aku baru masuk balik kat sini. Dah lama aku tak jenguk. Seriously. Dan blog korang aku follow apasal tak wujud dah weh! Apasal korang give up? Korang takda sini sapa nak baca blog banggang aku? Well, it use to be a platform where we ridiculed our self with our immature stories. Aku baca balik post aku, isu tak penting pun nak merepek. Zaman attention seekers dan zaman rasa diri bagus. 
Oh well. What brought me back here today? 
Life.  
Recently many devastating stories I have heard and encountered. My facebook is so toxic that I decided not to check as long as possible. I would like to quote my friend's Matt status updates. Facebook used to be a platform for people to catch up with people's life separated by distance. Now, people post nonsense and promote hatred. Which I agree. Aku jarang bersetuju dengan Matt, but yeah, this one yes. 
Putting aside all those negative things. Yes I have been in a series of down moment and crossroads. Its depressing. Takda kot orang suka being …

Being alone?

I went to my landlord's house. Paying my monthly rent as usual. Aku ingat lagi masa aku mula mula tengok rumah sebelum sewa dulu, my landlord bawa cucu perempuan seorang. Masih lagi baby. Aku ingat lagi dia tengah drive, baby tu nangis. Dia suruh aku dukung, dodoi sket bagi berhenti nangis. Oh God, what do I know about babies at that time? But surprisingly the baby was quiet after I held her. Talking about natural talent.. ;p Now the baby dah main basikal keliling rumah. 
"Sudah 2 tahun kamu sewa rumah saya." Said the aunty. My landlord. 
Aku sentap kejap. Wah. Yeah dua tahun sudah. Ni mesti aunty nak naikkan sewa kan bukak topik ni. Hati kecil aku bermonolog dalaman. 
"Sudah 2 tahun kamu duduk sorang sini. Kamu tidak sunyi, takut ka?" aunty sambung.  

Kamu tidak sunyi, takut ka? .............. Kamu tidak sunyi, takut ka? ................. Kamu tidak sunyi, takut ka? ............... Kamu tidak sunyi, takut ka?
Kata kata tuan rumah aku terngiang ngiang sampai waktu …

Apa ko rasa?

Pernah kah kau bangun pagi pagi. Kau sebenarnya dah bangun on time. Tetapi dah tabiat la kan mengelamun memanjang pepagi ni. Mengelamun punya mengelamun, check jam, aih dah kena masuk kerja!

Bingkas bangun dari katil. Bergegas ke kamar mandi. Mandi cepat cepat. Bersiap cepat cepat. Keluar cepat cepat.

Disebabkan kepantasan bersiap itu tadi, dalam perjalanan ke office tetiba teringat.

"Yah! Handphone aku. Sebelah bantal aku. Atas katil aku."

Perjalanan diteruskan dengan hati tidak tenang.

Kerja hari itu pun tidak tenang. Risau takut ada panggilan penting. Text penting.

Segala kerja hari itu dibuat dengan kurang rela hati. Risau. Hati gundah. Takut ada panggilan penting. Text penting.

Lunch break hampir hampir nak buat keputusan balik rumah ambil phone. Takut ada panggilan penting. Text penting. Tapi niat dibatalkan. Bazir pulak duit minyak dan toll nanti. Waktu rehat pun sejam je.

Petang tiba. Lagi 3 jam waktu balik. Sabar je. Kerja diteruskan. Hati masih tak tenang. Takut ad…

A letter for you, street car mugger.

To who ever broke into my car last night.
Hello Sir/Miss,
Your probably already know how I look like and my full name from my company’s access card and my business card. We are a research company; most of the things we work on are merely datas. After evaluating what I have lost, perhaps we could chat a bit about those things in your possession currently.
Firstly, my Touch and Go card. I don’t remember exactly how much credit left inside; the last time I used was two days ago, and my guessing I still have approximately RM20+. May the card help you when you needed it? Use wisely. Next would be my access key. Nothing much you can do with that card I supposed. I also merely used it to enter my office, one of the least favourite place to go. My name cards, in case you need to jot down some important number or points, you can use the blank page at the back of my cards. I hope it could be useful. My 4G pendrive, less than 1G space used solely for my songs. I normally sing My Wish by Rasc…

We tend to forget..

Haip..

Selamat kembali ke sini. Tu pun kalau ada orang pergi sini la. Aku baru habis expedisi menjelejah 30% kawasan di Sabah sebelum aku balik Kuching jap sampena Easter. Aku nak cakap jugak yang kerja aku telah berjaya menyedut tenaga aku agak banyak juga, dan aku rasa aku perlu 2-3 hari bermalasan kalau nak recover balik sepenuhnya.

Since this is the final week of Lent, aku tak pasti aku dah berjaya mengharungi Lent season dengan bernas atau tidak. My lent promises I've got it done some. Pada awal memang aku focus ar tapi makin lama makin goyah. Memang tabiat manusia.

Aku nak cakap sikit, salah satu hari aku kat sabah kitaorang kena travel the whole day, go deep inside the jungle. We got out and reached our hotel at night. We spend overnight in Lahad Datu. Masa tu aku dah lembik dah kepenatan. Apa dalam kepala aku..tilam katil bantal. Tilam katil bantal. Tu je sepanjang perjalanan balik.

Sesudah berjaya settlekan payment dan urusan check in, masuk bilik. Aku tengok bilik ada ba…

Wishlist 2.0

I re-read my old blogspot. What a stupid write up I have there. Duh. Dah la first few post especially in 2009 era was SMS writing. Bluergh. Boring. I dont even bother to read about it for the second time. ngeahaha 
Anyway I stumble upon a very interesting post about My Wishlist way back in 2009/2010. Here's how the list goes and follow up a brief write up as per to date situation. 
10. A concert ticket
My first concert was Maroon 5 in Stadium Melawati. Their ticket was kinda expensive and I dint manage to get a near stage ticket. I got a free seating ticket and observe Adam Levine always awesome voice and performance. Throughout the year I had attended several more event. Watson music festival, Rainforest World Music Festival, Future Music Festival, Good Vibes festival, Arthur's Day and Urbanscapes to name a few. Oh wow. That's a lot. Proudly cross this from wish list. 
9. A ticket to Anfield
Oh well. This probably still going to be in my wishlist. I did not manage to go t…

Quarter life crisis

So I am 25 years 1 month and 17 days old at the moment I am writing this. In my mid 20s. Cool.
So do I live to my expectations so far? Own a car, stable job, plenty of money. Well, yes I am.

I could provide for my own trip anytime, anywhere now. When I could just left everything behind and just go. This is the time when my doings would only affects me. I dont have to worry about bills not taken care of or childrens to look after. Just go.

I should get my passport stamped more. If you dont do this in your 20s, when you will? Plenty of place in mind now, time will decide to go. Then I will have plenty of stories in my 20s to tell when I turn 30. My scrapbook need more photos anyway, 2014 travel log in progress.

Being 25 is also the time I feel I can still be ridiculous, and look back and say "Hey, that time I am still young." Macam la ada time I wont ridicule myself. I may still ridicule myself even in my 30s. haha. Even more, you are old enough to give advice to people, even …

Late 2013 review

Ahh.. there you go. Back here since my last post few months back. It is pretty common to review the year.
I just completed my 2013 scrapbook recently. Yeah, I am pretty traditional in keeping all the memories. You can do that your own way through facebook and instagram (anyway, i do have those), but I rather want to print out some moments.

I would say 2013 was another pretty amazing year. So many happy moments of course. It was crazy. Little did I realize I did so much in 365 days. See, if I did not have the photos printed out, I wouldnt have realize this. haha. Yes, much $$ was spent but i guess thats what $$ for, arent they? So in contrast im suppose to save more $$ in 2014. Lets see how that goes.

Then the happiness jar. Accidentally found it among my pile of clothes. Inspired by Jeannette, it was a good way to capture all the good moment too. I should have bought a bigger jar. Its overloading. Ahh..and you realize all the little gestures, good moments and tiny bits of thing that y…