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Tidur semakin kurang

Ok. Fine. Aku mengaku aku memang ada masalah susah nak tido. Lebih-lebih lagi aku yang suka fikir lebih-lebih pasal hari-hari esok. Aku memerlukan environment yang gelap dan senyap high probability aku boleh tido lena.

Malam tadi aku ingat nak tengok game Aston Villa vs Liverpool. Check match time. 12.00 am. haish. lewat pulak. Esok hari aku kena kerja. Lepas rajin aku memasak pumpkin aku beli, makan malam depan TV sambil tengok game Arsenal, rasa mengantuk pulak. Time-time begini sangat malas nak basuh segala peralatan memasak tadi. Aku beri motivasi diri, kalau bukan aku nak kemas, sapa lagi? End up aku basuh pinggan periuk segala, cuci toilet and do my laundry. Ha.. ambik kau. terbaik punya motivasi diri. Oh ya, sebelum aku memasak semalam aku berjaya tukar bulb luar rumah yang dah lama dah terbakar. Sangat gembira okay luar rumah dah terang....

Dah settle segala. Penat. Ahh..screw The Reds match. I could only wish the best. Aku sebelum tido baca cerpen ending kisah cinta sedih. Sa…

News feed

As much as I want to spend less time on facebook, I couldn't help but keep checking it on my phone during my free times and when I need quick distractions. Its kinda my source of news, name it the important ones or the annoying ones, friends' updates, as well as my source of laughter.

I noticed I have two category of friends' status updates..

Group A consists of people who keeps on nagging about their daily lives. How much work they have and counting every hours to get home. This are also the people who daily updates about how terrible the traffic jam they were stucked in. Post about food at the same shop many times. Posted about unnecessary things for people attentions as if we could help such as " Cant this shop change the channel already? This show is boring" ( cant you just please tweet about this?) They also post curse words to show their dissatisfaction towards their friends, neighbours, bosses or colleagues who are so called stabbed them at their back. In …

Transition state

Hey there,

I am reflecting my doings the past few months. I remember being unrest and nervous, constantly worrying about pile of work and personal stuffs. Recently I was send back to the station where I am supposed to be, I find I am more calmer here, despite a bit lonely.

Last year, I was seconded to our other station to help with some work over that side. With a very short notice, I depart. I was slightly heavy hearted to leave, wondering what would be ahead of me and a bit scared of what awaits. Eventually, I manage to settle down and get myself comfortable , without I notice it, I kinda like being there. After months, never I would thought that leaving would affect my emotions. There was this sad feelings clouds me, where I fail to find its cause. The kind of feeling I normally have whenever I am about to leave a place I have been comfortable with. And I came to know about me leaving affects those who've been helping/ working with me. I am touched.

Work is work. I left. Again …

1 hour of perfect life

The plane past through the dark cloud and I could feel a pretty aggressive turbulence. Take off was smooth and easy but landing was the other way round. My head was heavy and my stomach was uneasy. I started to blame everything I had consumed for the past few days, excessively. Upon reading the day's paper on the Pope's message on consumerism and how we had neglected the poor, slight regret rises in me and the fear of the sin of gluttony appeared. 
Safe landing finally, although we had to spent few more minutes in the plane to wait for the plane to park according. Sizzling rain greeted us upon arrival in KL. I head straight to the taxi booth and paid RM105 to my destination. Yes, it was pretty far from the airport.
"Where to?" asked the taxi driver. I did not say a thing besides passing him my ticket. Stated there was my destination. He nodded. I am still evaluating my leave and my trip back home in my 1.45 hours plane ride and 1 hour journey home. I am avoiding conv…

You may need to pass your un-required toys to someone else required it the most.

It was yet another very hot and dry weather. I started to feel dizzy and begin to see blinking star in my vision. At certain point, I slightly regret that I have to work in the nursery at this hour.


A message received.

"Lunch?" my colleague texted briefly, indicating its already lunch hour, and I forgot about the time again.

"Yes, please." I replied her text.

Met my colleague at the carpark, immediately she asked "Where to makan?"

"Somewhere equiped with an air-cond and sell cold drinks." I suggested.

That moment, simultaneously our brain signal us to go to McDonalds, because this is the place fits best to what I just suggested and located just nearby. Perfect!

So we reached McD, ordered our meal. I took BBQ McPepper for lunch whereas my colleague ordered Happy Meal as she said she was not that hungry to get a big portion of lunch set. So, as the happy meal came with a toy, she asked

"Mel, you want this toy? You can take it if you wan…

People's act of kindness

Hi there.

The past week had been a very long and tiring week for me. I had been here and there. I kind of not remembering my where about seconds after I woke up in the morning, daily. My training in the field give me such  a mental and physically tiredness, although I do enjoy the training, but I just don't have the time alone for myself. The week was later added on with stretch of meetings that giving me headache and pile of works. And that was very exhausting.

The whole week, I have been bragging about being demotivated and uninspirational. Towards the end of the week, I somehow being spiritually lifted up. I couldn't explain how it works, but anyhow, it helps a lot. It strike to me, I may have fail to pay my attention to those who are close to me. I mean, I have been bragging about myself, my worries the whole week but have I been missing other important things in other's life? Therefore, judging from my friends' facebook statuses, it gave me some clue of those who …

Small act of kindness

I opened my office door; turn back on the lights and the air condition. I sat down ready to continue my work after a heavy lunch break at the nearby Secret Recipe. Slightly regretting the heavy lunch I took as it started to make me a bit sleepy.

Knock, knock

I heard the knocks on my open office door, an indication that I welcome our staffs to meet me in my room without hesitation. Stood there was a staff, with his smile, holding on his right hand a transparent white plastic bag.

Good afternoon, miss. ……Ump, miss, have you taken your lunch?” he opened his mouth.

Yes. I just came back after having my lunch.” I answered.

Well, in that case, this is for you, from all of us” he smiled and handed me the plastic bag in his hand to me.

The plastic bag happened to contain a humble McDonald’s lunch set. He explained that it came from the staffs and workers, and keep thanking me for a good bonus they had received early this year. Well, I don’t feel I deserved to be thanked anyway, as the b…